Orgasms

I am slightly preoccupied with orgasms at the moment. One of the cruellest tricks my body plays when I’m having a relapse is that it can’t cope with exertion without tipping me into pain and fatigue and having to curl up in bed waiting for the day to be over.

Sometimes this is the exertion of using my brain like working all day. But mainly it’s physical exertion such as exercise or anything else that raises my heart rate past a certain point. Which infuriatingly makes orgasms as potentially risky to my health as running for the bus.

So I’m rationing orgasms at the moment and it’s mainly proving that if you deny yourself something it’s all you can think about it. I’ve been dreaming about them but managing to wake myself up before I actually have an orgasm in my sleep. I’ve been picturing giving Princess orgasms while we were sitting on the sofa chatting yesterday. I’ve had to hide my Doxy under my bed to stop it from giving me ideas.

It’s incredibly distracting so to try and make a virtue of this preoccupation I’ve been revisiting favourite or memorable orgasms I’ve had. Somewhat unusually I can’t remember my first orgasm either by myself or with someone else but over the last few years plenty of orgasms have stood out for me.

When I first started fucking my Master I was used to sex with men that involved them having their orgasm first and then giving me an orgasm almost as an afterthought like well brought up people say ‘thank you for having me’ automatically after being invited somewhere even if they don’t mean it. These orgasms were on a tit for tat basis of one for you, one for me like the world would end if someone had more pleasure than another.

This is partly testament to my taste in men (which isn’t something I’d write home about) but also the way we talk about sex as something done to women rather than with women and framed as what men expect rather than what women need so that women’s orgasms and pleasure are seen as incidental to how you can ‘drive hime wild’ or ‘keep your man.’ Add in our goal oriented culture with everything being reduced to tick boxes and to do lists and orgasms become some kind of destination instead of the journey.

My Master isn’t like that at all and it confused me so much the first time we fucked that I actually fought against it until I was sure he was really enjoying concentrating on my pleasure and giving me orgasms not stacking up some kind of sexual debt I had to pay off in return.

Since then I’ve become slightly spoilt by how many orgasms he (and Princess) has given me and also extremely appreciative that they both encourage me to be greedy for them. It’s been notable how my orgasms have physically changed in that time too. Not only have they grown in intensity, but I’m more aware of the different ways I can orgasm now.

I used to have concentrate incredibly hard to be able to come like if I didn’t keep my eye on the prize the whole way, it would elude me and that orgasm would feel like a full stop to events. Now my orgasms in person come more easily and they feel like commas linking each action together so that I can come multiple times and still want more.

Different actions and sensations lead to different kinds of orgasms too. The feeling of an orgasm when my Master uses his whole fist in my cunt is like the giddy abandon of when you’d twirl round and round until dizzy as a child before letting go and feeling you could fly for a second before immediately wanting to do it again.

And when Princess gets me up on my knees and strokes either side of my clit with two fingers and makes me squirt all over the bed my orgasm is in two stages. The first moment of cold liquid squirting from my cunt making way for the warm floaty feeling of pleasure rushing up from my toes to my mind.

Putting the Doxy deep inside my cunt makes me ejaculate almost the same way as a man so that my orgasm sneaks up on me and I lose control of my senses and my cunt momentarily glad to see the evidence that I’m still with the world. These orgasms are the kind that tend to tip my body over its threshold and mainly occur when I’m on my own or my Master is pushing me to breaking point.

Something about another person there seems to keep me grounded and my body behaving so now I’m wondering if two people in the form of a threesome would be practically medicinal…?

 

Orgasms

A Little Buzz

I know I said I’d been having a bad patch recently but when my Master messaged me at the weekend asking what I was up to I decided it was worth exhausting myself to see what he had in mind. I hadn’t had an orgasm since I’d last fucked him a few weeks ago and I’d spent to night before face first in Princess making me incredibly horny.

Knowing I need a little help at the moment, he ordered me to use the Doxy but this time instead of simply sliding it into my stretched cunt and lying back I was to ride it like a cock. Seeing as my Master was the man to convert me to fucking on top after years of those men who lie there immobile while you fuck him til your thighs burn only for them to stop straight after they come, my ears pricked up at this order.

I liked the idea of seeing how much deeper I could take the Doxy this way and practising leaning into the power of its vibrations and finding out how holding still versus fucking myself against it worked. But my Master never likes to let me go at my own pace.

Even when I’m masturbating I have to prove my submission to him by focusing my pleasure to his orders and enjoyment. To some people that might sound constricting but to me it literally opens me up both physically and mentally. Submission to his domination is an immediate turn on for me even if he isn’t physically present.

He had me slide the Doxy into me and slide it in and out of my cunt slowly and steadily on the lowest setting for ten minutes making sure I didn’t come under any circumstances. I felt a little bit tight by my standards but some generous lube had the toy slipping inside and feeling myself actually stretch open in the process.

I love that feeling more than anything else as my cunt literally comes to life wrapping itself around a huge toy or Sir’s cock or Princess’s fingers. It’s like a moment of sexual energy that brings the horny feelings in my mind and body together and turns thoughts into intentions. As soon that sensation happens I know my body is working with me and it’s going to be pure pleasure.

I started myself off gently running the Doxy for a minute stationary in my cunt feeling that shiver and shudder of getting turned on and then I started sliding the toy in and out, pushing it in as deeply as comfortable and pulling it out so that the widest point stretched me wide to the point of pleasure-pain.

It didn’t feel like ten minutes as time stood still while I was so focused on the sheer enjoyment so it’s just as well my Master texted me at exactly ten minutes to remind me that I needed to pay attention to my orders. I was up on my knees, rocking against the Doxy like a huge cock almost instantly.

I turned the speed up just as my cunt got greedy before stopping and staying still so that the toy and the vibrations filled me up. It felt so good I had to put my hands on the bed to steady me and seeing the wand moving in my cunt with only my muscles holding it place made me want more.

Sir had given me orders to come three times around the Doxy without switching it off or stopping. The first came as I put it on full speed and leaned into it brushing my fingers across my clit piercing exploding into an orgasm so intense I couldn’t tell if it was lube or me ejaculating dripping down the toy.

Riding the Doxy

The second orgasm was still on my knees pushing against the Doxy and pulling it out my cunt to that widest point that makes me feel filled and fulfilled in equal measure. It was so strong the bed seemed to tilt as I went a bit wobbly with intensity. The third orgasm came easily was I rolled onto my back and my legs pulled up into the air with the toy buried as far as possible in my exhausted cunt.

No sooner had I lifted my phone to thank my Master for the orgasms and describe them to him than he pushed me further by changing the order to five orgasms without switching the wand off. There was no chance in hell I could have taken another moment of those vibrations let alone another orgasm.

All I could do was lie back with the Doxy on my thighs feelings the muscles in both my legs and my cunt twitch in exhaustion and pleasure feeling utterly fucked…

A Little Buzz

Absolutely Ruin Me

My Master is being very generous with the Doxy at the moment and he had me playing with it again on the sofa the other day. I enjoyed lying back in all that space, knowing their housemates could walk in at any time and reading this excellent fisting story while pressing the Doxy against my cunt.

When it came to slipping the head of the Doxy inside me I videoed* it to send to him and was impressed to see that it only took 18 seconds for the whole thing to slide into my gaping cunt. That recent stretching is definitely paying off.

The whole head of the Doxy in my gaping cunt

I enjoyed fucking myself back and forward with it on the lowest speed to warm me up before really starting to take the power up through my soaking wet cunt. It didn’t take long to get to this stage of wanting the toy inside but also wanting to be able to come.

Doxy wand stretching my wet cunt wide open

 

And in order to be able to come I needed the Doxy pulled out to the widest point to stretch me as much as possible. All while at full power and fucking it side to side in my slippery wet cunt to completely ruin it as I came so hard I ejaculated at the same time.

Stretched open til I gape with the wand inside my pussy

No wonder my Master was pleased with me. This is making me greedy for even more stretching….

 

 

*And if you are greedy for more videos, remember I have a selection at Clips4Sale you can enjoy anytime

Absolutely Ruin Me

Train Me

glass-plug

My Master and Princess were on a train last night and clearly in need of some entertainment to make the journey go quicker. And what better way than to use me to provide it?

I was lying in bed when my Master texted to say Princess was incredibly horny and he wanted to make her more so. Therefore I was to get on my knees and start fucking myself with the pink G spot toy while describing how it felt to both of them.

I love that toy. Small but effective in every way, it really does hit my G spot in the exact place to make me come with ease and I thoroughly enjoyed fucking myself slowly and steadily with it as my cunt got wetter and I was more turned on by sending them photos and videos on the train.

The toy got me right to the edge pressing in the right places and all I needed to do for the first orgasm I was ordered to have was brush gently against my clit piercing with my thumb and I went into an excellent and almost easy orgasm.

Princess asked my Master if I could try the toy again with the Doxy pressed against my clit as she knows how kneeling up always makes my clit swell and I come harder. He was clearly in a good mood because he ordered me to do just that as long as I put a small plug in my ass too.

I had a little issue managing the larger head on the Doxy with the smaller than I’m used to toy so when I was close to coming I had to switch from my knees to lying on my back. I’m very glad I did because I came so hard that I squirted all over the bed and ejaculated everywhere as well with the glass plug slipping straight out again.

pink-come

I think I’d have collapsed and never got up if I’d been on my knees. As it was I had to ask for breathing space before my Master ordered me to ride the John Holmes toy for ten minutes to show how changed my cunt is.

He allowed me to lie down as long as I told Princess all the things I planned to do to her over the next few months. I told her there would be more photo shoots and that I would be fucking her more with the strap on and as I texted imagining her squirming on the train and my Master approving of my ideas, I couldn’t wait to slip the other toy into me again.

I sent my Master a photo of how easily the John Holmes slipped into my soaking wet come covered cunt and he admired how that huge cock is now easier for me than the little pink toy was when he first fucked me with it nearly two years ago.

I rode it for ten minutes allowing it slip in deeper and then pull back so I could get that feeling of a cock sliding inside you again and again and then my Master allowed me to come again with the Doxy on my clit and I was broken.

It took me a good hour my legs to stop shaking knowing my Master only stopped giving me more orders to come so he could do them in person tonight…

Train Me

Videos

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So last week after I did a very enjoyable shoot with more clips for my Clips4Sale site, I gave my Master copies of all the videos I’ve made so far and then waited to see if he’d approve or tell me to try harder.

He sent me a very hot image of him and Princess watching one of the clips yesterday with Princess sucking his cock in rhythm to me fucking myself on camera.

He told me to slip the wand inside me while they watched that clip together and come for him in real life as it played out online too.

I love filming the clips and have imagined my Master’s response to each orgasm I give myself on camera which makes performing even hotter as it feels like obeying his orders every time.

So to combine that with actually obeying his order and knowing both Princess were so turned on by the videos, meant that I had one of the most powerful orgasms of my life, ejaculating harder than I’ve ever managed before as I came.

And that was just from them watching two of the videos. There are nearly twenty five to choose from and more to go up in the next week or so…

Videos

Wet

Yesterday looked like being a lazy day after my rather enjoyable wake up call from my Master. I planned to take advantage of the wet weather to be grown up and do housework, but then my Master’s wife asked if I was free to going make up shopping.

Now make up is my other great love in life after sex so I was disappointed to say I couldn’t but I did suggest she call round afterwards to show me what she bought. We sat on my sofa just chatting about lipstick and drinking tea and genuinely just hanging out. No smut.

For some reason the conversation turned to how neither of us like traditional rom coms and how we might not be traditional women and then we noticed it was raining so heavily the road of outside my flat was flooding. We joked that if we were in a rom com that would be romantic.

And then we realised she was stuck inside my flat and we could make a much better use of time than rom com tropes. I messaged my Master to ask if I could let his wife make me come and he allowed it but with a punishment for not letting him know what we were doing first.

We’d have to work hard this time. No toys, no hands, except for me spanking her. She had to make me come twice and then leave when the rain stopped. And then she distracted me so much I know now why that line about ‘is it raining?’ might have come into creation (although that might have ended up being a very different film.)

She licked my cunt so well she made me come three times and ejaculate harder than I’ve ever managed before. Watching her rub my come all over my soaking wet cunt and then keep licking it before kissing me was one of the hottest things I’ve ever seen or experienced.

I’m the only person looking forward to a long wet summer at this rate…

Wet

A Real Change

Changing room Tk Maxx

It’s taken me two days to get out to fulfil my Master’s last order of fisting myself to orgasm in public again which meant that I was more than ready to come, but that my ginger was past its best.

I will definitely be buying some more tomorrow but today I had to make do with the black glass plug in my ass instead. I had a little difficulty finding somewhere with enough space and time to be able to slip the fist in and play with it.

Then I nipped into TK Maxx for some kitchen stuff and realised they had proper changing rooms with suitably impressive sized mirrors to perform in front of. Plus that place is packed. I’ve definitely started to make more noise when I come so even if I didn’t have the ginger, it would be a challenge to make any unusual sounds at all in there.

I wandered round outside for 10 minutes picking up the maximum number of awkward looking items to try on to justify taking my time in the changing room and then queued up. Every cubicle was taken and when I finally got one, I knew there were people mere inches away from me on either side as I stripped off and knelt down over the fist.

Watching from all angles as it slipped into me got me even wetter and I had no difficulty getting the toy in quickly and easily before lying back on the bench with my feet stretched out resting on the mirror in front of me, watching my cunt gape open as I fucked myself hard.

I was sure the wall was moving in rhythm with me and making noise for me and I was incredibly aware of the sounds of my soaking wet pussy enjoying the toy. I never get to see myself as stretched as that and I’m wishing now I’d remembered to take a photo of my gape when I had the mirror there.

But the bench was slightly the wrong height for me to fuck myself to orgasm so I stood up and let the toy slip in and out as deeply as possible and it took hardly any time before I came hard. Turns out there’s nothing like not being able to make noise to make you want to make noise and I could have roared when I came.

It’s just as well I didn’t or I’d have missed the sound of myself ejaculating onto the hardwood floor as I came. I had to bite my lip not to make any more sound as it happened and my legs gave way onto the bench behind me.

I had to sit there for a few minutes while my legs stopped shaking and I could get dressed again. I could feel how wet I still was as I stood in the queue afterwards. I might be keen to shop for more than ginger after discovering what fun changing rooms can be…

come on floor

A Real Change