Movie Night

I think my Master tolerated my disobedience this week better than I expected seeing as he suggested we went out for dinner last night and didn’t mention my behaviour before or after we ate.

Instead he suggested we all watch a movie over drinks. We managed about fifteen minutes of a bad drag queen film and he and Princess agreed it was the worst thing they’d watched since the first instalment of Fifty Shades of Grey last summer.

I have fonder memories of them watching that film than reading the books as my Master sent me some excellent photos and videos of him fucking Princess with a bottle to entertain themselves where the plot of the film failed to.

So in perfect (slightly tipsy) logic we decided to watch the second Fifty Shades film to see if it had improved at all. Spoiler alert: it hadn’t. In fact it’s possibly even less sexy than the books as even the masked ball scene that was moderately erotic in the novel ended up being flat and dull on screen.

The only bit we all approved of was a split second with a spreader bar where Mr Grey finally did something even remotely dominant but again we were surprised by just how non kinky Fifty Shades really is.

The film was either shorter than I imagined or we distracted ourselves with mocking it because it seemed to be over quite quickly and my Master rewarded us for our efforts by putting The Rocky Horror Picture Show on again since we’re all fans of men in stockings.

Princess was sitting in between my Master and I as we watched the film and I’m not sure when I noticed his hand had started to move along her bare leg. Maybe when I felt her squirm slightly against me, growing in intensity as Sir’s hand moved closer and closer to her cunt before he slipped her panties off and slipped his fingers inside her.

She slid down the sofa to allow herself to grind against his thumb on her clit and he ordered me to play with her cunt along with him and kiss him as I did. Princess nearly slipped off the sofa in pleasure as she came round both our hands.

Sir took advantage of her position to push her onto the floor on her hands and knees and strip her bare, pushing her face into my now glorious wet and naked cunt as he fucked her from behind. To show Mr Grey just how it’s done, he began spanking her ass so I could hear each slap on her bare skin and then feel her push further into my cunt as she felt each hard fast spank connect with her.

Princess has a particularly perfect ass for putting up in the air while on her hands and knees and for spanking. The sound of a hand or toy slapping against her skin sounds spectacular and goes straight to my cunt every time I hear it.

It was clearly having a similar effect on my Master because I’ve never heard him spank her so hard. The last slap across her ass before I came round her tongue was so hard and loud it actually echoed round the room and jerked her whole body forward and off my my Master’s cock.

He used the break to sit on the sofa and pull me onto his cock astride him and make me fuck him as he sat perfectly still and pulled my top down so my tits were exposed and easy to see jiggling with the effort of me pushing down deeply as I fucked him as greedily as possible while Princess watched and kissed him and they both took turns to play with my tits.

As soon as I’d made myself come with my Master’s cock , he pushed me off his lap and face first into Princess’s cunt with my ass up in the air. As soon as he started fucking me again, it was my turn to get spanked incredibly hard and the sound and motion of it sent me into that blissed out subspace where nothing except pleasure really matters to me.

I was completely focused on the playing with Princess’s clit and feeling my Master’s cock inside me as he pulled me against him hard enough to actually pop the boning in my waist trainer. It was only when he groaned as he came inside me that I noticed the film was still playing in the background.

He lay back and watched me lick Princess to a last orgasm just as Susan Sarandon asked us to ‘touch-a touch-a touch-a touch me’ and I was reminded what a kinky classic Frank n Furter really is

Movie Night

New Discoveries

I had a moment or two of guilt about disobeying my Master’s orders about wearing panties when I went to visit Princess the other night but her reaction when she found that I’d left them as a souvenir of our fucking distracted me almost immediately.

I’d been lying in bed half asleep trying to get cool on a very warm evening when she immediately got hot again when she discovered them and ordered me to strip off before pressing herself against me naked.

My cunt certainly woke right up as she ran her hand over it and played with my clit making me squirm as she alternated between stroking and licking it until I came with her on top of me.

If I was expecting her to roll over and go to sleep I was pleasantly surprised when she pushed me onto my side with my knees up and cunt exposed and herself in behind me and produced the little pink G spot toy we both love so much and pushed it inside so incredibly easily.

The toy was pressed up incredibly deeply up against my G spot as she very slowly and steadily started to fuck me with it while gently stroking my clit. The sensation was so strong I could feel my cunt tensing and my mind only able to concentrate on how pleasurable it was rather than the details of what she was doing.

The next thing I knew was that I was coming so hard I could feel my cunt trying to push the toy out against her hand and the feeling of squirting repeatedly as the toy pushed right against my G spot perfectly.

I had hardly got my breath back when Princess left the toy deep in my cunt and started stroking and teasing my clit again as she played with my piercing in exactly the way that made my almost swollen clit feel like I could hardly bear the intensity. Another orgasm was hardly unexpected in those circumstances but to squirt so hard against her hand again was quite the surprise for both of us.

I wanted to know just how horny all Princess’s efforts had made her and my hand went straight to her cunt, brushing the palm of my hand against how wet she was and pressing my fingers against her clit until she came wriggling with surprise under me.

She looked so good with her back arched, hips thrust up and her tits right there that I couldn’t resist curling my hand round so that my fingers slipped inside her and my mouth went down onto her nipple which made her buck against me so that I could fuck her with my hand with ease.

I didn’t lift my mouth at all, pulling and licking and sucking at her nipple as it stiffened against my tongue and her cunt pulled against my hand as I fucked her harder and harder. She was was writhing against me and pulling me tighter so my hand went deeper and deeper into her cunt as she started biting my neck and gasping.

Her cunt was clenching round my fingers so hard that she was fucking my hand without me having to move it again more than simply hooking my fingers round inside her so I could concentrate even more on playing with her tits.

I knew she was close to coming but I wasn’t expecting the motion of her whole body lifting off the bed like it did and her making noises I’ve never heard from her before as she did as her cunt actually sucked my fingers deeper inside the orgasm was so strong.

Once she’d stopped gasping she told me that she’d felt the orgasm start in her breasts before travelling down into her cunt so she’d felt it in her whole body rather than just between her legs. I’d heard of orgasms like that but always thought they were an urban myth until now.

I’m hoping the fact both Princess and I ended up with versions of orgasms we’d never had before makes my Master more accommodating about my disobedience in the first place…

New Discoveries

Hot Thoughts

 

Ice cube on my clit

It’s stupidly warm in London this weekend. The kind of still sticky heat that means if you live in a flat you have to open all the windows, lie very still and wear as little as possible. The whole combination of it is making me incredibly horny.

I think some of it is the associations with last summer when the weather was hot and so was fucking Princess and my Master. Something about the temperature brings memories to mind such as ice cubes on Princess’s cunt on long hot afternoons.

But some of it is that while staring longingly into my fridge hoping I’d find something refreshing and cooling in there I remembered about the chilled glass dildo I love and now I can’t stop thinking about sliding it over my smooth shaved skin and into my hot wet cunt.

Because what better way to break a sweat than fucking yourself to orgasm?

Hot Thoughts

Three Times As Smug

Now I know I’m extremely lucky with my life generally but reading this article on how people hate threesomes just made me realise that I’m Lottery winner levels of luck on a regular basis because none of the complaints in the article are an issue for me.

Rather naively I’d always associated the term threesome with that stereotypical image of a man and two women together and thus before fucking my Master and Princess had this idea in my head that I’d never had a threesome before. I need to get the words ‘slow learner’ tattooed on my forehead frankly because my narrow definitions of sex and inability to put two and two together are getting embarrassing.

Not only had I had threesomes before, one of my first relationships as a teenager was a threesome. I was alternating between fucking two friends in a very casual on off way when on a tipsy evening they shyly confessed that they’d been fucking each other too for years.

I think they were expecting shock or awkward questions about their bisexuality and friendship and instead they got me trying to hide a filthy smile and barely a pause before the three of us were in bed together.

For a girl who loved cock, getting to enjoy two at a time was a treat in itself whether I was getting to experience the pleasure of both or watching them please each other but either way I never felt left out. I almost had to reminded to join in sometimes I was such an enthusiastic voyeur to their playing.

Plus there are few better ways when relatively sexually inexperienced to learn how to pleasure a cock than watching two men who know their way round their own and someone else’s so well. I love that confidence men have when they play with their cock and in this case that confidence extended to them sucking each other’s cocks too.

I had several happy months playing with both of them together and separately and was more than disappointed when my GCSEs meant having to give it up. The memories however kept me warm on many evenings for years to come.

Unfortunately I’ve never found two men happy to play in the same way since although when I was doing sex work I lived in a seaside town popular with stag parties and often got men who wanted to fuck me alongside their best mate. They’d be adamant to begin with that it wasn’t a threesome but a tag team instead.

I enjoyed the submission of sucking one’s cock while their friend fucked me before they would swap over and each get their turn. But with just enough taking charge, I could almost always get them to overcome their initial fear of each other’s cocks to end the evening with them masturbating each other with the prize of getting to come over me. A starter threesome if you like.

I did get to sample some of the issues that article mentioned though in another sex work based threesome when a couple hired me to be their third for their wedding anniversary. I’d never fucked a woman before and wasn’t particularly enthusiastic because of the way the husband went about organising it. And judging by how much he was paying me I should have stopped and thought about whether it was too good to be true or not.

We didn’t even get to the point where anyone touched each other and the whole evening went horribly wrong because of his insistence that fucking two women at the same time involved comparing them to each other and playing favourites. It was inadequacy in action and I was secretly delighted when his wife burst into tears and screamed at me to leave since it meant I didn’t have to fuck a man who wasn’t in control and a woman hating every minute of it.

I was less keen when he then insisted he wasn’t going to pay me at all even for the time I’d already spent there (and getting ready) and I ended up massively out of pocket and having to wait a long time at a suburban bus stop quite clearly dressed to fuck and hoping the neighbours were talking as revenge for my not being able to afford a cab home as planned.

While I’m sure they remembered that particular anniversary better than I do (even if it’s separately…) but it definitely put me off MFF threesomes too until my Master suggested it with Princess.

I was still nervous that I might not enjoy sex with a woman but I knew that there would be no danger of him losing control or leaving anyone out because he’s far too calm and confident for that. But I am still always impressed by he manages to choreograph each threesome so it feels completely natural without being repetitive in any way.

No wonder I’m so spoiled and smug now…

Three Times As Smug

Lucky

A blog reader the other day responded to a piece I wrote reminding me how lucky I am with my Master and Princess and it made me smile because I really really am. Not only they are kind and loving and delightfully filthy, I enjoy their company immensely, but the whole relationship is essentially like winning the lottery in lots of ways.

My path with my Master crossed absolutely by chance through the mutual friends of mutual friends and it’s unlikely we’d ever met on any other occasion. The fact I didn’t mind the open nature of his relationship with Princess certainly got us off to a good start while the chances of us being equally filthy and having such mutually compatible kinks was the second stroke of luck.

The next bit that worked out was that I finally stopped querying everything he suggested me in a fit of self doubt and trusted his logic that he liked Princess and he liked me and so we’d like each other and started fucking her as well.

I don’t think any of the three of us expected that to work out quite as well as it did and that we’d be so compatible together. I know they joke about people like me who with a couple being called a unicorn but there really is some truth in how rare and unusual it is for such relationships to work out so well.

I feel incredibly lucky each time I think what’s developed out what was basically a chance meeting to begin with and I’m sure anyone would appreciate such a stroke of fate. But for me there is the added feeling of luck meeting not one, but two people who understand me being disabled.

Most people think of disability as using a wheelchair (or more accurately that horrible expression ‘wheelchair bound’) so being invisibly disabled by illness confuses people immensely especially when you are dating which when you are supposed to be impressing people.

There’s trying to find the right moment to mention it and make it clear it’s an important part of my life but not make it the only thing about me. Do you talk about while you’re still at the exchanging email stage when it makes people imagine the worst most disabling forms of disability that freaks them out? Or do you wait til you meet in person and you look ‘normal’ to them in the pub with your pint so they don’t think you are ‘really’ disabled?

Doing it in person puts you both on the spot. I often feel the need to balance medical privacy with convincing them my relatively unknown condition really does exist* while giving them a comfortable Disneyfied version of chronic illness so they don’t climb out the toilet window to get away from you in disappointment at how their date has gone.

Disclosing something personal like a disabling illness seems to broach early dating etiquette for many people like you’ve just given them a political spiel or offered to compare income. People’s responses range between immediately changing the subject to convincing me why I’m wrong to use the word disabled because I don’t look disabled or tell me I’m not in fact ill because they’ve never heard of my illness and I just need to try yoga/more sleep/leeches/thinking positively or whatever it was their’s mum’s friend’s dogsitter’s cousin did to cure the same condition and problem solved.

It’s always always caused an issue. Even if they aren’t full of their own feelings and opinions on illness and disability, it causes a pause like a dropped stitch in a line of knitting as we struggle to get the flow of the date back to exchanging our best anecdotes in the most charming way possible.

Because even if they get it, it’s let the elephant into the room and the rest of the date comes down to how long before he points it out and I have to wrangle it in response. The big grey shadow of the disability discussion is that people always always want to know if you can still have sex and it’s just a matter of time before they ask.

I mean I get that that seems like a genuinely relevant question on a date if you fancy someone but it presumes that I want to have sex with them too and ignores that there’s plenty of non disabled reasons someone might not be able to have sex so becomes as invasive and rude as me asking if he’ll be able to get it up after a fifth pint. You can see why casual sex with little conversation appealed to me so much for so long.

I think I trusted my Master the minute I told him about my illness when we first met and not only he did he not ask that question, but I could tell he was thinking about fucking me and simply working round anything my illness made difficult rather than simply waiting for a polite moment to enquire.

And that’s exactly what he’s done throughout our relationship and it never feels like a particular issue even when I’m not quite well enough for him for fuck me senseless. Both he and Princess know my body well enough for my illness just to become one part of me and our relationship and that acceptance makes me feel incredibly lucky.

So if you ever meet anyone with any kind of disability or chronic illness I hope I’ve given you some pointers on what not to do if you want to get lucky with them…

 

*(I’d rather not mention it by name here as it makes me very identifiable in real life not because I’m awkward about it.)

Lucky

Public and Private

One of my favourite things is going out in public with my Master and Princess knowing that no one would ever guess on first glance at the dynamic. We look like three friends out for a drink with the married couple making sure they don’t forget their single friends these days.

I love that those assumptions allow a lot of hiding in plain sight. Nights in the pub with mutual friends with Sir sending me and Princess into the toilets to make each other come while his mate goes to the bar. Princess kissing me while we nip to the bar on our round and everyone is preoccupied with pub talk.

Then there’s the balance between my Master behaving like the well mannered man he is  to bar or wait staff but still very obviously staring at the slutty outfit I picked specially to catch his eye. It amuses me that anyone noticing his eyes on my tits or thigh high boots would think we’re behaving badly in front of his poor unsuspecting innocent wife.

Because who would guess that his wife is far from innocent and loves watching us being sexual with each other? That’s part of the joy of people not knowing much about relationships with three people in them. No expectations give a certain amount of freedom.

I particularly enjoyed that freedom the other weekend when my Master suggested we go out for dinner while I was wearing a rather sheer top that showed my pierced nipples more than is probably acceptable on a quiet Sunday night out. And the table next to us certainly spotted them.

As we ordered cocktails and chatted about cunt, I enjoyed watching her glare and him stare. I almost felt sorry for her being so defensive of Princess as she side eyed me and my Master in equal measure in between making obviously comment to her boyfriend what an awful husband stealing slut I was.

He was so busy making agreeing with her and making sure she couldn’t see him double checking just how slutty my nipples were being that neither of them spotted me running my hand up and down Princess’s bare leg under the table and her squirming in her seat in response. I only wish I’d read this ridiculously hot post about private touching in public places before then.

I’m not sure if they’d have been more shocked by sitting next to that than they were when my Master went to pay the bill and Princess turned and kissed me just as we were leaving. I did enjoy hiding behind my nipples for once…

Public and Private

365 Days

Coincidentally around the time my relationship with my Master began I started keeping a diary. It was really to try and develop the habit generally but it turned out to be fortuitous timing as in between the notes of people’s birthdays or appointments, there are unexpected milestones such as ‘the first time my Master fisted me’ or ‘Sir ordered me to make myself come in a public place tonight.’

This catalogue of smut amuses me immensely with its record of my training and a glimpse into what I find important enough to note in my life. It also shows me how things can change in just a year.

Because this time last year, my Master was planning the second threesome with his wife and me and I had absolutely no idea what that would lead to. I mean I knew there would be fun and orgasms but I never expected the emotions and relationship that developed from that night turning ‘the wife‘ into Princess and then into such an important person in my life.

I have a quite different relationship with both my Master and Princess. She is my girlfriend in the way that most people would imagine such a thing. We not only fuck but share that close friendship required in a relationship. My Master and I are friends too but in a very different way and I don’t wan to turn him into what I have with Princess as it works so well as it is.

But among my friends who know that I’m part of a relationship involving three people (and the question that wider society asks about relationships like this) is ‘don’t you feel second best to their marriage?’

And for me, the answer is definitely no. I never feel any less important because I’m not married to either of them. Other people might feel very differently but for me discovering that there is a style of polyamory known as ‘solo poly‘ was life changing. Put simply this is when you choose to be the ‘extra’ partner outside the marriage or ‘primary’ couple and aren’t seen as lesser for that role.

I never fitted well into ‘traditional’ or monogamous relationships before now. Even on the occasions when I was dating someone I really liked I felt restless and confined quite quickly and the relationships never lasted more than a few months. I assumed I was just being a bit of a diva who tired of people easily and was impossible to please or even worse, a bit of a bitch.

This latter suspicion was confirmed by the fact I felt very comfortable in the relationships I’d had with married men where I was basically the bit on the side. I disliked my part in their infidelity but couldn’t help enjoying the model of a relationship where I could see other people and continue to structure my life around myself as much as them.

My Master was completely honest with me from the moment we met that he was in a relationship and that Princess knew and agreed to him having other relationships. Slightly unfairly I took that statement with a pinch of salt as I’d heard it before with varying levels of truth to it and because I didn’t really care.

I assumed we’d have a sexually charged fling with no real emotion that would wear itself out and not really matter. So as the months passed and things were building up and it was becoming obvious that he’d been completely truthful about his relationship being open, something very odd happened and I started to be less interested in fucking any other men apart from him.

Everything I’d thought about who I was in relationships somehow seemed to have been turned on its head and I was a bit confused but extremely happy with everything. I’d always joked that my dream man lived on an oil rig and I saw him every three weeks and got my bed to myself most nights.

Then Princess came along a year ago and everything got turned upside down again and put back into place in new ways. I still wasn’t really interested in fucking other men apart from my Master (unless he was there too) but I was very interested in fucking her and getting to know her as person.

Plus I really liked this new relationship where there were three of us fitting together alongside the feeling of three different couples in the dynamic (me and my Master, Princes and my Master and me and Princess) and that sense that each of us was getting what they needed from the dynamic.

I had the full time emotions of no longer being single but with my living alone lifestyle, Princess had the female friendship and sex she’d been missing, Sir had his wife full time and the sexual enjoyment of his slut on the side. Having such clear roles that fit together so well certainly works for all of us.

I’ve certainly ended up getting exactly what I wanted but couldn’t articulate I needed because I had no idea relationships like this existed in a society that insists monogamy is the only way love can be valid. It might not work for everyone (and like all relationships, it does require work.) And trust and effort and acceptance and all the things that add to the very hot sex.

But how could I feel second best in something like that where each person’s role is just as important as the next? Here’s to many more years…

365 Days